Flow

Learning to accept the flow of the universe.. I didn't expect to feel hurt but I was.
Maybe it was my ego hurting rather than my love hurting.


Nasib baik aku mengambil keputusan untuk tidak menelefon ahli keluarga dia untuk memberitahu sesuatu berita, walaupun mak aku beberapa kali  meminta aku melakukannya. Aku anggap dia sudah keluar dari hidup aku, walaupun tujuan mak aku baik, tapi mungkin orang lain akan salah anggap. Hearing the news, I think I made the right decision, nanti aku dituduh macam-macam pula.


I am not sure what I am feeling right now.
Tomorrow I turn 31. MY society has conditioned me to believe that being alone is a sad state, and to be a female 31 year old is.... just sad. My first reaction to his news was actually stress that I am still unattached and frustrated about not 'hooking' my guy.

Until I realized, it has always been my choice to be alone.

I am just glad I am flying free. Right now, the world is still my oyster.






Update (the day after) - Heheh, yes, it was my ego hurting :D I'm fine after all, oh you drama queen you :P